an escape

finally we have celebrated our 13th "sisters anniversary".

we bought our very first friendship ring in Pulau Langkawi end of year 1996 and we decided to become "god-sisters" on 13th February 1997. Ha, dramatic daoooooo, i know, i know. We did upgrade our ring to a white-gold one 2 or 3 yrs ago... can't remember :P

We supposed to meet in Jan, then Feb.... only until last week we fixed our celebration at the Sheraton Hotel for high-tea last Sunday. It was great, lotsa stories to tell... catching up etc. The food was quite ok, 4 persons for the price of 3... we paid S$28 per pax, not too bad...

look at the color combi, nice rite! my starter :)

sad to say the main course was not good, very salty... nothing impressive except the roast duck. however the fantastic dessert truly cheer us up :D

the ice cream, toppings, cakes... they are just sooooo HEAVENLY nice...

front (left to right): huili, rene, me. back: zoe

rene, zoe and me - 17 yrs of friendship whereas 15 yrs with huili. We treasure this friendship and we really appreciate one another a lot... we share each other's high and low season in life, enjoy the moment to be together... a lot i want to write but i dunno where to start... i am so thankful to have them in my life.

experienced disappointments few weeks ago and this escape truly brightened up my day. thank God for this wonderful friendship that we have... :)

calling?

this morning during praise & worship, i was singing "God is great, sing His praise, all the earth, all the heaven..."
i asked myself, did i sing it from my heart?
how easy it is to praise God during good time.
how hard it is to praise Him during stormy time.

today pastor tim preached bout letting Jesus into my boat, he can calm my raging sea.
He can turn darkness into daylight; stormy into stillness; futility into fruitfulness.

i went out to be prayed by pastor tim and every word he spoke, pierced into my heart.
indeed, wait upon the Lord, commit my dreams and plans unto Him and He will show me His Will and Plan in my life step by step... He is my comforter, my peace because He knew what i ve been through...

sometimes when we face trials, we tend to run away, disappear in front of people.
but i ve learnt to choose to embrace His love, and love from His ppl... His hands are always there ready to hold me and His ppl are also there to pull me up.
so, why run away?

last nite as pastor tim was sharing bout feeding the multitudes...
many of us responded and would want God to really use us...
he prophesied over me that...
"God will lead you to this place of darkness, very dark, with very little people, they are small, they are despised by many. but you will be a great blessing to this place, you will minister to them..."

oh wow. very little people... at first i tot they are physically very small... maybe 小矮人？very dark? meaning... those countries that are under spiritual bondage? or the skin of the ppl are dark? (india, africa? oh no)... but some of them think that might be those orang asli... or tribes... coz they are very little in terms of number... and this made me think of Akha Tribe in Northern Thailand!!!

i enjoy short term mission trips... but i never tot of becoming a full time missionary coz i prefer myself to have a clean room, clean bed and most importantly, a clean toilet. well... i guess i need to pray and seek God more about what He said. He will slowly reveal to me i believe...

His calling in my life...

and what will it be?

perth...

i can't wait for my 10 days holidays in perth.

so looking forward to the road trip we are going to have.

it would be great to catch up with so many old friends in oz.

beautiful busselton jetty. where i long for a visit.

i just can't wait any longer... another 7 mths to October... argh.

only He can help

So many unanswered questions...
So many doubts.

after throwing my tantrum at God on sunday nite, i refused to talk to Him. I asked God to go away and disappear in front of me for a day. I don't need Him, I need to cool down.

end of the day, i dunno why i picked up my daily devotion (i was supposed to be angry at God), i was amazed how God longs to talk to me, He has been waiting and wanting to tell me this:

Trust in Christ to lead you-
"You will guide me with Your counsel, and afterward receive me to honor and glory." - psalm 73:24
When we face a time of crisis in life, we need direction. These scriptures tell us that trusting God is the way to find that direction.
Trust requires allowing some unanswered questions to be in your life!
No matter how badly you maybe hurting from a loss or tragedy, the Holy Spirit can give you a deep peace that somehow everything will be all right.
Being angry at God is useless, because He is the only One Who can help.

He is the only one who can help me.

Whom have i in heaven but You, o Lord.

就这样。

乌云密布，倾盆大雨，不是天空，是我的心。
从朋友手中得来的消息，顿时间心里的那份期待就这样化为乌有了。
本以为放得下的，
我却真的伤心。
这几年自己真的全心全意地顺服上帝对我说过的话，紧紧抓住他的应许“又要以耶和华为乐，他就将你心里所求的赐给你。将你的事交托耶和华，并倚靠他，他就必成全。”
可是当我觉得自己很喜乐走在上帝的道路，尽心尽力爱神，事奉，付出所有时，上帝并没有把我心所求的赐给我。。。所以我，失望。
不明白是因为还看不到上帝在我身上更美好的计划。
我相信总有一天我会领悟到他更高的意念。虽然现在是痛的。

很难过，没有力量的我，不但要开开心心为青少年小组的2个女生庆生，要坚强带领职青营会meeting, 过后再拿起电话再继续鼓励我的青少年小组带朋友参加拜六的福音小站活动，再来脑海里盘算着职青小组接下来的计划，CLCN prayer, 明天工作的重要会议，婚礼的卡片设计，还有很多很多。。。

突然觉得好累。 累！

也许这些日子冲刺地太快了。

身为组长的，也会软弱，也会很痛。

有时候我们需要更多的鼓励。

可是因为我们是大家看着的对象，所以我们必须被上帝快快地刚强起来。

再继续喜乐走在上帝的道路上。

可是。。。

真的好想好好地伤心一场。

有时间地伤心一场。

kiasu activities in Sg

this week i ve done many kiasu things... lol.

last nite went to Bodyshop warehouse sale at Suntec with irene.

most of my skin care are from BodyShop so i tot i could get some good deals there.

the crowd was... was... was.... scary...

much muchhhhhhh longer than friday nite queue at Sg checkpoint!

only get to see the entrance after almost one hour queue...

however, very disappointed after we got into the hall. almost none of the products are those we are looking for... anyway i can say that those products that are selling in Bodyshop outlet, you won't see them there. Popular products don't need warehouse sale, am i right?

but surprisingly, still many ppl kiasu daooooooo... look at the things they bought, i just have to salute to their kiasu-ness... many ppl fighting for the cosmetic products too, and dunno how many of the heels stepped on my toes!!! ARGH.

after standing for long hours and the disappointment, me and irene decided to sit down and have our dinner at Food Republic. And yea, we got the famous bak kut prawn noodles... many prawns inside... S$4.50 per bowl.

oh, then the night before, my colleague who is the member of Fitness First ask me to join him to gym... anyway its a guest free pass... so, being a kiasu person, i tried it out. lol.

this is called city life. many office ppl joined gym and some of them have their personal trainer.
i remembered i used to lose 20kgs by just skipping outside my house... when we are in the big city, perhaps we have to have city lifestyle... if you do your skipping at the ground floor of the HDB Flat, seems so awkward!!! hahaha... not considered "city" liao... ?and yay, i like their changing room... haha very nice n posh!

oh well, after 1.5 hrs of exercises, we went to this very famous xo fish sliced soup at Holland Village to have our dinner... and yah, the shrimp paste chicken!!! (oh no, fattening!!!)
xo fish sliced meehoon. S$7. only 4 slices of fish inside. EXPENSIVE... to me.

but they taste really nice.... lol...

thats the full record of my kiasu activities this week... :)

Quiz Time!

we had two bible quizzes so far in tnt cg, 1 on Matthew, 1 on Mark.

look, every group is concentrating in answering the MCQ...

aaron, eekiat & ahzou. weiting, weicheng.


sally & chrytz. jeyshin & gerald.

terence & stella.

it's good to encourage one another to study the Bible together and be rooted in the Word of God, no doubt bible quiz has helped us to know the Bible better~

oh well, let's see what we had for supper last Fri!

yes, look at our sumptuos supper... lol... so blessed! wanna join us next week?

my annual leaves

i am entitled for 16 days leave this year, 15 annual leaves + 1 day public holiday replacement...
i ve planned all of them... and i hope half day is able to complete my PR formalities...

Feb: 1 day ~koktong's wedding
Mar: 0.5 day ~complete my Sg PR formalities
June: 3 days ~teenz camp
Sept: 1 day ~tnt camp
Oct: 5.5 days ~eleanor's wedding + road trip in Perth (air ticket bought!)
Dec: 5 days ~GAP mission trip

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TOTAL : 16 days

all used up.... argh....

let's wait

be strong n take heart...

花。心。

trying something new on bookmarks! ceramic flowers + quilling hearts.

recently bought this quilling tool from chinatown and it really helps to save my time in quilling the paper (i used to use my fat fingers to quil)... hmmn... however they don't turn up to be as nice as what i imagine... anyway, a new try is good! :)

NEO at CrimsonLogic

23-24 Feb. new employee orientation.

our company has this every quarter to welcome new employees.

i did get to know a few new faces from eGovernment business and delivery department... yea they are all I.T ppl... heh... at least i have ppl to go to in case i dont undertand the terms or the solutions... 2 days sessions were pretty boring but still tahan-able...

our team presents our collage... it represents a human's beating heart... the nerves and vessels are the core values the employees possessed, the innovations and products are the key to keep the heart active, our ISO cert is to make sure the quality of the heart, our business covers the globe etc... and we got the 2nd prize! (out of 4 teams) not too bad la.

here's our team pic with our Financial Controller (left).

(from left: FC, Nazir, Nee, me, Migule, Wei Ting and Tse Erh)